birthdays
every year i post ridiculous lists full of things i want for birthdays. as it approaches, and my fake internet birthday passes, i find myself in the interesting position of having reached a state of what i'd almost call enlightenment, if the term hadn't been so destroyed beyond all meaning. i was reading a study earlier in the month that accented everything i've discovered this past year. stuff, really doesn't matter. nothing does, actually. that's why i'm not really phased about selling my car. it's just stuff. the only things really worth investing in are your relationships with other people. they're what makes you happy. everything that's built me up or dragged me down over the last year has been because of my relationships with people. they've provided all of my happiness and sadness.

if you insist on getting me something, i do need clothes, but it's near impossible to find clothes i like, so vouchers for places that sell clothes are probably a much safer bet. either that or find a way to fix my tv, but that may be more difficult again so who knows.

anyway. it's been an interesting year. i could've never predicted any of it, which makes for an interesting life so it's difficult to complain too much. and i've never been short of something to do or people to do said something with. so thanks everyone.